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dream journal: i had a very odd and slightly pointless dream last night. my dad was teaching me how to fix a car and i became pretty good at mechanics and i knew how to fix almost everything. we were going out a our neighbors across the road were having trouble fixing their car so they asked me to help instead of my dad. i fixed the car instantly and my dad started freaking out and getting really angry because i had become a better mechanic than him almost overnight.
its odd because neither me and my dad know nothing about car mechanics and if we were im pretty sure that my dad will be better at it. 
i found a website called dream moods where you can search a symbol or a reoccurring theme throughout your dream and have an idea what it means, when searching i typed mechanics because that seemed to be the main concept and this is what i got:

mechanic: to see a mechanic in your dream suggests that you need to work on healing your past hurts and trauma.

i found it odd because i can't think of something off the top of my head but im sure it will come to me shortly. 

i have been feeling pretty horrible since i woke up this morning. i dont feel ill, just crap. i dont really feel like myself and im feeling pretty self conscious about the way i look and feel.

i feel like being in school would really not benefit me so i have taken the day off to reflect and think so that i can feel better tomorrow.  

i know im not exactly the best influence by skipping school, however i was faced with a huge dilemma which made me realise how much people care about my education. to take a break from my difficulties, i took a trip to the tiny park that is just down the road from me without taking any electronics. it is beautiful there as it is always empty and during spring it is full of white blossom 

when i was there it gave me time to think of my problems and solutions to them. that small trip refreshed my mind and lifted a huge weight of my shoulders.

the feeling of not having my phone or ipod allowed me to fully relax as i knew that i wouldn't be interrupted.

tip #1: when you ever feel stressed or upset, go to the nicest / quietest place near you without your phone and recap over everything you are grateful for and how to solve obsticals. 

my brother came over for dinner today, as i am vegetarian, i ate seperately as i cook for myself,  i tried to be as healthy of possible by making quinoa salad, soy chicken and edamame with a soy and ginger dressing

while my brother was here we had a long chat where we talked about times we had together when we were younger and it was really nice to reminise and laugh about stupid things we did when we were younger.

my day hasn't been as interesting today but nonetheless i hope you enjoyed reading,

beth x